WTF!

Wanting what I know is impossible to recieve makes me try even more. What is this new found motivation to get what I know I don't need?

To my Boo

Dear Baby,

Everything that I have experienced in the past did not prepare me for you. Suprisingly this event has taken me overboard. It's funny because I never knew I could feel this way. Damn...that's all I can say! Damn! I mean i've fallen and I don't want to arise. The way you romance and seduce me. Baby who knew a person could tease me the way you do. Oh My Gosh! The feel of your soft, oh so soft, lips. Oh so suckable. The way you hold me, oh so strong. You make me feel safe and that has never happened to me! Damn. I like this treatment. Please don't stop. I'm taking the affection, safety, feeling and you and I'm running with it. Thanks for entering my life, your timing couldn't be better...

Sincerly,

Butt Butt :)

Letting It Go!

The stressors of high school come in serious packages. It seems like if it isn't one thing it's another. I mean I can never have a great day altogether. If I have a good day at school, then there is hell at home and vice versa. I always say that I am ready to leave everything and start anew, but then I realize everything I have now is what made me who I am so I can't give up on them. Im just so bothered by it all! Can't sleep at night results in being late in the morning, it has gotten so bad that everyone in the office knows my name and my homeroom teacher! Damn! I wish I can take classes at home or after 9am because Im so tired. I work half the time and then I'm home cleaning up or doing scholarships that I know I'm not going to get. What's the point of it all? I can't win for losing, and Im not the one to complain, usually. I would rather get up and dust myself off and keep it moving it just feels like someone/thing has a hold on me that keeps me tied down. Im not suppose to feel like this.

}gotta get myself together to start over later in life{ right now...I just have to deal with the discrepencies of my actions!

}Bored{

Im so done with High school and people in general. As usual I have so much fun in school when Im not in class! It seems so stupid now, teachers say they are here to help, but they really aren't and then I lack the motivation. Sometimes I wish I can do senior year all over again, but then again...never mind! Its almost over!